SCHIZOPHRENIC….

 

They say I’m crazy

And you are my hallucination.

If for you to exist

I have to be mad

Then so be it.

MUSING HEART…

In my mind

I have made love to u

A thousand times.

Did u feel me too?

As I lay raw beside u

My soul was nude.

I am a book

Waiting to be read. 

Do u want to go through?

The other half of my heart is long missing.

Do u feel as lost as me?

My soul wanders in a vast emptiness

Can u come and find me? 

As I get engulfed by a darkness

Will u lit me up? 

In your eyes I find my light

Will you keep me shining bright?

RAW…

Death whispers to me

In the silence of the night.

I’m here for you, it says.

If ever life betrays,

You can count upon me;

For I’m the loyal one.

GRATITUDE

Thank you

For showing me 

True love doesn’t exist 

For making me realize that

Soulmates are a myth.

Also, that, forever is a sham

Thank you 

for opening my eyes

To promises, they are just scams.

Grateful to have you

As a lesson in my life.

Thank you 

for being the pain

I courageously survived. 

Commitments are false

I finally know this now.

Trust is so trivial

It gets played with somehow.

The everlasting loneliness

Is the only truth that triumphs.

Heartache and melancholy 

Along with it comes.

Happily ever after is 

Just a bunch of words.

Thank you 

for showing me

Loving hurts like a sword.

MIND SPEAKS

 

I learnt it the hard way

That life is a journey so lone

We are alone inside the womb

In our graves we are alone. 

It took me a lot of pain

To embrace the lemons of life

To stand up after every blow

It took so many sleepless nights. 

The long lonely dusks have seen

Me bawling like an orphaned child.

The last rays of the restless dawns

 has comforted my weary eyes.

The emptiness that’s inside my heart 

Is meant to stay that way. 

No one else completes us

It’s the self ,till end , who stays.

I  befriended my demons

And made peace with my fears.

I forced myself  to smile again

After wiping my own tears. 

SILENT THOUGHTS...

If ever I’m lost in blue,

Will you shed a tear or two?

Will you sit by my gravestone

And miss the way I had loved you?

If ever life takes a turn,

I travel to the land of no return 

Will you take some time out

To mourn the truth that I am gone?

Will you smell the clothes i wore?

Will you still sit at the door

Waiting in vain for me to come?

And then remember im no more.

Will you miss the way we faught?

And then, the way we laughed a lot;

Will you miss my endless nags

Or will you find the peace you sought?

Will you let go way too fast?

Will you forget me at last?

Life moves on ,but love does not

My soul will keep living the past. 

ODE...

Once there was a little miracle

My womb was the only world she knew,

Our heartbeats were synced together 

Bit by bit inside me she grew.

Out came the little miracle 

On my lap she giggled and played.

Her smile brightened up my whole world

Her voice made my mind so fresh. 

Day by day I watched her grow

Like a blooming morning flower.

Her love for me along with poured

Like the early monsoon showers.

Her hard hugs soothed my daily blues,

Her gestures blessed my life’s value. 

 Her aura so blissful, pure

She made me feel so secure. 

 

Like the first beam of sunlight,

Her touch made me feel alive. 

Like the pristine morning breeze,

Her being helped me survive. 

My small wonder is growing now, 

Inch by inch her wings get built. 

One day she will fly away.

Thenceforth I will droop and wilt.