I LOVE YOU...

"I LOVE YOU"... these words get trapped in my lips when I see you.

When I look into your eyes, I find my entire world in them.
And all that comes to my mind is that, "I LOVE YOU".
When you smile at me, the innocence of it weakens my breath.
And all I feel is that, I LOVE YOU.
The way you tenderly touch my hands, leaves a shiver down my body.
And my mind cries out aloud, "I LOVE YOU".
My heart skips a beat when your lips softly utter my name.
And my heartbeats just say, "I LOVE YOU".

"I LOVE YOU"... so many times my eyes have tried to express these words.
But I wonder why I could never speak them out.
When you take your eyes off me, my lips silently utter them.
And when you look at me again, my face becomes expressionless like a mannequin.
But a voice deep within me calls out your name and screams..."I LOVE YOU".

A MIDNIGHT DREAM...

As the blue night falls,
I wait for you,
As you tiptoe into my room,
And slowly sit by my side,
you look into my eyes,
And softly keep your hands on mine,
I bury my face in your chest,
And you softly kiss my forehead,
Your touch takes away,
All the pain the world has given me,
You caress my hair,
And whisper into my ears,
Your breath takes away,
All my loneliness,
You take the rolling drop of my tear,
On your fingertips,
And touch my eyes with your lips,
The warmth of your arms around me,
Take all the worldly agony,
In my dreams you are mine forever,
But in my life, you are just a midnight dream.

ANOTHER EVENING WITHOUT YOU...

Another bereaved evening just passes by.
The clouds in the sky are on a journey towards some unknown destination. The bright, reddish moon playing hide and seek behind the veil of the wretched clouds like a shy new bride. The noise of the world slowly fading into the silence of the night.
The wind caressing me and playing with my hair, trying to distract me as I close my eyes and try to feel the face that eludes me in midnight dreams.
The leaves of the trees whispering the unspoken story of a perennial love of the departed souls into my ears, as the wind passes through them.
A lonely evening star peeping from behind the clouds and eyeing me, as i sit here thinking of you.
Some unknown flower fills the air with with magical fragnance, as if trying to send some secret message to the night fairy. At a distance some night bird crying aloud as if trying to beckon its lost flame.

Yet another lonely evening thus getting over, leaving behind an abandoned soul, in its eternal wait for a forfeited love.

BACK TO YOU......

Every drop of tear,
Every sad note I hear,
Every moment of blue,
All lead me back to you.

Every poem I write,
In such long, gloomy nights,
And my lonely thoughts too,
All lead me back to you.

The deep, helpless sighs,
Long lost dreams that prick my eyes,
This much I know is true,
All lead me back to you.

At the end of the day,
Every prayer I say,
And my secret wishes do,
Still lead me back to you.

I MISS YOU....

Often in the cold dark moments
I sit all alone,
Wearing the warmth of your thoughts
Closing my eyes and
Wrapping my hands around myself.
Though you are with me no more,
But I still feel you,
In the silence of these moments.

Even though we are apart,
Yet you survive within me.
In my mind and soul,
In every drop of tear that flows
In every beat of my heart,
In every deep sigh that comes within me.

The tears dry as the moments tick by,
But the pain does not die.
And the wound still survives,
A waiting heart still calls your name
A dying soul still cries.
"Come back...I MISS YOU".

MY LOUD SILENCE....

Why do I still see your face
when I close my eyes?
Why do I still pine for you
in the long lonely nights?

When the moon rises in the sky
and peeps from behind the tree,
Why does my heart cry for you
with you I want to be?

When I walk down the long road
why your footsteps I hear?
I turn back with a hope
and why you dissappear?

When the western wind blows
why still your smell I get?
Why do I wake up at nights
and find my pillow wet?

Why do you still elude me
in my sad midnight dreams?
"I miss you my dear love"
why still my smashed heart screams?

Why I wrap my hand round 'self
and crave for your warmth?
Why my mind still misleads me
saying one day you will come?

When my one hand holds the other
as it cannot hold yours,

And when my trembling lips call you

Why my heart aches and sores?

Days have gone and years have passed
still why I feel so alone?
Yet for your unfaithful love
why still I cry and moan?

When she sat by the side of the river... forever...

She sat by the side of the river in the moonlight night. The cold breeze blowed and the sound of the river was breaking the silence of the night. The river water was shimmering. The face of the moon in the water shimmered along with. It resembled someone. It resembled him. He, who was no more there. She wept, the tear drops falling down from her eyes shone with the moonlight and sparkled like bright diamonds. Every tear was a sign of remembrance. Remembrance of the moments that were gone and would never comeback. Every tear had the brightness of her dreams. Dreams that she had once seen with him. Dreams that were her hope. Dreams that were her reason to live. Dreams that were being shattered one by one in the form of tears.
 The wind touched her everywhere. She shivered. It was as soft and gentle a touch as his. She closed her eyes to feel it. Memories of the good old days flashed in her mind. What went wrong she thought. Everything was so perfect. This was the place where she used to sit with him, every night and spent hours of togetherness. The river, the trees, the mountains and the stars, greeted them. She would sit close to him, with his hands wrapping around her and her head on his chest. And they would stare at the moon for hours. His inconspicuous face in the moonlight night was the most beautiful thing she had ever seen. He would hold her hand and whisper the words of love in her ears. Every word along with the sound of the river seemed like a music in her ears. That was the music of her life. The brightness of his eyes was the light of her life. The beat of his heart was the rhythm of her universe. He was all she ever dreamt off. He was the reason of her existence.
 She wrapped her hands around herself. Suddenly the wind felt so cold and sharp and was cutting through her flesh. The sound of the river disappeared. The moon light was so dark. The mountains at a distance looked like unknown demons coming to engulf her. The world was so silent. She felt scared. She felt lonely. She felt devastated. “I miss you…” she screamed “come back to me…”; there was no answer. Her voice hit the mountains and was thrown back to her. Even they didn’t want her words anymore. The universe no longer needed her. The meaning of her existence was lost. She un-wrapped her hands and opened her eyes to look around. The river was screaming, and moon was burning like a ball of fire, the leaves of the trees whispered like the evils from the hell. She held the wrist of her left hand with her right hand and closed her eyes again.
His face appeared in front of her. He had the same smile on his face that made her forget all her pain; the smile that she would die for. A deep sigh came out from within her. It brought along with all her dreams, her hopes, her emotions, her feelings and her pain. Now she was empty inside, blood ticked down her left hand. Her sharp nails had cut through her flesh and reached her veins, but she felt no pain, she could see him at a distance with his arms open wide. The noise of the world disappeared. She could hear his voice now. And she could hear music. She could feel his touch again. And then there was nothing. He lifeless body, lied on the wet grass by the side of the river, like a flower freshly fallen from a tree, a dry leaf form somewhere fell on her body as if to cover her. The tears dried in her cheeks the blood from her hand tricked down and was absorbed in the ground below, Thus she was back to him again….