CRIMSON BLOOD...

Do you hear me crying?
Do you see that inside Im dying?
A gruelling pain gnawing on my heart
Do you see is ripping me apart?

Do you see the tears disguised as smile
Is stabbing my mind all the while?
The sieved soul inside my shell
Is sobbing like a battered child?

Do you see I try to hide
The wound you gave
Though it doesnt let me thrive.
With every smirk I try to fake
My spirit dies another death.

Do you know I spend my nights
Thinking bout how you denied
The fact that you were ever mine,
Quelling a love so divine.

And now, when that you are gone
'Coz I hate being on my own,
I just lift my hands and pray,
Heaven take my life away..

A MIDNIGHT DREAM...

As the blue night falls,
I wait for you,
As you tiptoe into my room,
And slowly sit by my side,
you look into my eyes,
And softly keep your hands on mine,
I bury my face in your chest,
And you softly kiss my forehead,
Your touch takes away,
All the pain the world has given me,
You caress my hair,
And whisper into my ears,
Your breath takes away,
All my loneliness,
You take the rolling drop of my tear,
On your fingertips,
And touch my eyes with your lips,
The warmth of your arms around me,
Take all the worldly agony,
In my dreams you are mine forever,
But in my life, you are just a midnight dream.

ANOTHER EVENING WITHOUT YOU...

Another bereaved evening just passes by.
The clouds in the sky are on a journey towards some unknown destination. The bright, reddish moon playing hide and seek behind the veil of the wretched clouds like a shy new bride. The noise of the world slowly fading into the silence of the night.
The wind caressing me and playing with my hair, trying to distract me as I close my eyes and try to feel the face that eludes me in midnight dreams.
The leaves of the trees whispering the unspoken story of a perennial love of the departed souls into my ears, as the wind passes through them.
A lonely evening star peeping from behind the clouds and eyeing me, as i sit here thinking of you.
Some unknown flower fills the air with with magical fragnance, as if trying to send some secret message to the night fairy. At a distance some night bird crying aloud as if trying to beckon its lost flame.

Yet another lonely evening thus getting over, leaving behind an abandoned soul, in its eternal wait for a forfeited love.

MY SOULMATE....

Who's The One who's made for me?

Who's The One who'll forever be?

Who's The One about whom I dream,

Every night. I wait for him.

All day and all time.

Who's The One who's forever mine?

Who's The One who'd feel my pain,

Before I speak of it? Who has no gain

In loving me. And yet,

Would love me with no bounds, no end.

The One who'd forever hold my hand?

Who's The One who'd read my thoughts?

Who's The One who'd love me a lot,

For whoever I am. No matter what.

Who's The One who'd never give up?

Who's The One whose very sight,

Would snatch all my fear and fright?

Who's The One who'd make me forget.

All the grief and all thats bad?

Who's The One who'd be my fate?

Who's The One who's my SOULMATE?

BACK TO YOU......

Every drop of tear,
Every sad note I hear,
Every moment of blue,
All lead me back to you.

Every poem I write,
In such long, gloomy nights,
And my lonely thoughts too,
All lead me back to you.

The deep, helpless sighs,
Long lost dreams that prick my eyes,
This much I know is true,
All lead me back to you.

At the end of the day,
Every prayer I say,
And my secret wishes do,
Still lead me back to you.

DARK NIGHT....

That was a night of an evil storm,

That was a night in disastrous form.

That was a night of endless tears,

That was a night of worst nightmares.

That was a night of shattered dreams,

That was a night of painful screams .

That was a night of broken heart,

That was a night I tore apart.

That was a night of suffering soul,

That was a night, darkest of all.

That was a night of last adieu,

That was the night when I lost you.

LONELINESS...

Lonely years and lonely days,
The world abandons but loneliness stays;
Lonely thoughts and lonely dreams
Lonely are my silent screams.

At the lonely old church lane,
My lonely wait for you in vain.
Lonely sobs and lonely sighs,
A lonely drop of tear just dries.

Lonely are the dawns and dusk,
Lonely blues are hard to musk.
At the lonely sleepless nights
Lonely are the endless blights.

Lonely seems this life of mine,
At long lonely hours of pine.
All things end but loneliness thrives;
Lonely is how I still survive.

MY LOUD SILENCE....

Why do I still see your face
when I close my eyes?
Why do I still pine for you
in the long lonely nights?

When the moon rises in the sky
and peeps from behind the tree,
Why does my heart cry for you
with you I want to be?

When I walk down the long road
why your footsteps I hear?
I turn back with a hope
and why you dissappear?

When the western wind blows
why still your smell I get?
Why do I wake up at nights
and find my pillow wet?

Why do you still elude me
in my sad midnight dreams?
"I miss you my dear love"
why still my smashed heart screams?

Why I wrap my hand round 'self
and crave for your warmth?
Why my mind still misleads me
saying one day you will come?

When my one hand holds the other
as it cannot hold yours,

And when my trembling lips call you

Why my heart aches and sores?

Days have gone and years have passed
still why I feel so alone?
Yet for your unfaithful love
why still I cry and moan?

DREAMS OF AN EVE....

Oh "you".........my unknown love
I search for "you"
in this vast world
Everywhere.........
Amongst the known faces
Amongst the unknown crowd
I dont find "you"
But I know you are there
Somewhere in this world
Thinking of me
As i think of "you"......

I dont know your face
I dont know your name
But i know "you" exist
Coz I have heard your voice
in the deep quiet nights
I have seen your shadow
in my midnight dreams
And i know you are there
Dreaming of me
As I dream of "you" .......

The western wind brings me your scent
And silence speaks your words
"Where are "you""? my heart calls
"You" dont reply,"you" dont come
But I know you are there
Searching for me
As I search for "you".......

I have cried to "you" in my saddest times
And thought of "you" in the deepest moments
When the moon shines bright in the sky
I try to see your face
And wonder if your also doing the same
I dont know where "you" are
But I know you are somewhere
Waiting for me
As I wait for "you"

Come to me oh! my "you"
Come and take me in your arms
Hide me from the world
As the clouds hides the moon
Take me with "you"
To where we belong
And I will spend my life
loving "you".......

I wait for "you" oh my love
In this empty world
Lonely in the crowd
Sad amongst the happy faces
I wait for "you"
And I will wait
Forever............

I WONDER

You left my hand and walked away
And I stood there
Watching you go
Wondering what wrong I had done

You didnot turn
You didnot look back
And I stood there
I wanted to cry
I wanted to shout
I wanted to stop you
But I just stood still
Wondering what wrong I had done

My heart ached of utmost pain
When memories haunted me
My mind filled with deepest sorrow
As I stood there
Watching you go
And wondering what wrong I had done

Unanswered questions flooded my mind
And unfulfilled promises mocked at me
Incomplete dreams pricked mt eyes
When I stood there
Wondering what wrong I had done

Days have gone and years have passed
But memories did not fade
I still remember you
Every night and day
Silent tears continue to flow
I go back to the same place
And stand there for hours
Still wondering what wrong I had done

When she sat by the side of the river... forever...

She sat by the side of the river in the moonlight night. The cold breeze blowed and the sound of the river was breaking the silence of the night. The river water was shimmering. The face of the moon in the water shimmered along with. It resembled someone. It resembled him. He, who was no more there. She wept, the tear drops falling down from her eyes shone with the moonlight and sparkled like bright diamonds. Every tear was a sign of remembrance. Remembrance of the moments that were gone and would never comeback. Every tear had the brightness of her dreams. Dreams that she had once seen with him. Dreams that were her hope. Dreams that were her reason to live. Dreams that were being shattered one by one in the form of tears.
 The wind touched her everywhere. She shivered. It was as soft and gentle a touch as his. She closed her eyes to feel it. Memories of the good old days flashed in her mind. What went wrong she thought. Everything was so perfect. This was the place where she used to sit with him, every night and spent hours of togetherness. The river, the trees, the mountains and the stars, greeted them. She would sit close to him, with his hands wrapping around her and her head on his chest. And they would stare at the moon for hours. His inconspicuous face in the moonlight night was the most beautiful thing she had ever seen. He would hold her hand and whisper the words of love in her ears. Every word along with the sound of the river seemed like a music in her ears. That was the music of her life. The brightness of his eyes was the light of her life. The beat of his heart was the rhythm of her universe. He was all she ever dreamt off. He was the reason of her existence.
 She wrapped her hands around herself. Suddenly the wind felt so cold and sharp and was cutting through her flesh. The sound of the river disappeared. The moon light was so dark. The mountains at a distance looked like unknown demons coming to engulf her. The world was so silent. She felt scared. She felt lonely. She felt devastated. “I miss you…” she screamed “come back to me…”; there was no answer. Her voice hit the mountains and was thrown back to her. Even they didn’t want her words anymore. The universe no longer needed her. The meaning of her existence was lost. She un-wrapped her hands and opened her eyes to look around. The river was screaming, and moon was burning like a ball of fire, the leaves of the trees whispered like the evils from the hell. She held the wrist of her left hand with her right hand and closed her eyes again.
His face appeared in front of her. He had the same smile on his face that made her forget all her pain; the smile that she would die for. A deep sigh came out from within her. It brought along with all her dreams, her hopes, her emotions, her feelings and her pain. Now she was empty inside, blood ticked down her left hand. Her sharp nails had cut through her flesh and reached her veins, but she felt no pain, she could see him at a distance with his arms open wide. The noise of the world disappeared. She could hear his voice now. And she could hear music. She could feel his touch again. And then there was nothing. He lifeless body, lied on the wet grass by the side of the river, like a flower freshly fallen from a tree, a dry leaf form somewhere fell on her body as if to cover her. The tears dried in her cheeks the blood from her hand tricked down and was absorbed in the ground below, Thus she was back to him again….